PISCES

*share ko lang po ung horoscope ko 4 d day,coz it's so much into me. it really touches d deepest feeling in me. thank's to friendster.*Pisces (Feb 19 - Mar 20)[?] The Bottom Line You've got a good grasp on the emotional upheaval in your life, so do not panic. In Detail You've got a very good grasp on the emotional upheaval in your life right now, so do not worry about what is going to happen. Things might feel a bit dramatic right now, but give them time. Soon enough you will see a way out of it. There's a good way to get through whatever issues you and your circle are facing. You panicking will only get everyone else stirred up, which in turn will only exponentially increase the stress level. Relax. Have faith that things will work out -- because they will. View Today's Horoscope for Another Sign

25 MILLION - BIG TIME

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It's just another year to celebrate my birthday,, not so advance but just on time before I turn 25 I am in different celebration of my birthday this 2008. Not a traditional thanks giving that mhamu always does religiously during our birthdays but to extend to everyone my gratitude with that of I had enjoyed with my yearnings of completing my so called journey..

25M thank You's for 25 reasons I'm thankful with...

#1 - To all the Fish images and figures inside the house, mostly in my room. Every morning that I wake-up and glance at any of it, they lightened my day and remind me to explore and relish the day without dubiety. For there is always different mornings to meet or tomorrow can never be a promise.

#2 - Coffee w/ cream - Thanks a million for warming my daybreak. You help me start my day and makes me brave enough to do a shower. Grrr!. To the Fresh Milk too for aiding me fall to sleep whenever I got problem on sleeping.

#3 - To my Cellphone. Although my fingers are not really a good dancers on top of your keypad. I'm thankful that it makes me reachable by oldfriends, goodnews even bad, and add new friends as well.

#4 - Ayala Center, Ortigas Center, Eastwood Plaza and how can I forget u SM Centerpoint. My million thanks to these places. For being able to lessen my loads of uptightness and driving me to overlook about it. It's because you offer a lot of things that are amazing to me. You are a kind of remedial treatment for my stress. Get's nyo hahah!

#5 - Drugs. Thank you that you help me live more than the years I expected to. To all the drugs I had taken and was injected to me. I guess you really are part of my system. I am not a drug dependant, but in most cases call it that way for it's one way to add more life. Actually food supplement adict ^_^

#6 - My Marian HS Barkada (k8, tata, abz, jhoy, ivy, donna, anne, sam, boni,vega, jordan, rodel, deo, nitoy, jakeson, archie, naldo, chester, jerold, renan etc.) I may not thank you before but I am really thankful for all the things we had shared together. My growing-up years started with you guys. We had moved to diff. paths but still we're able to set foot to where we started like the old times.

#7 - My KALIPI Family and getting bigger. I perceived that there is a bigger world awaiting for me to partake. It perchance to show the important purpose of my being and drove me to reflect it by means of my actions. I learned that there was a much bigger task than obtaining my personal interest and it is being responsible and liable with the welfare of humanity.

#8 - Rose, Xez, Majo---For being accessible when I need to hangout with your company. I'm just missing you I guess but to that I give you my million thanks. Rose you always see the best from me.and always wished the best for me. Majo your company means a lot to me, you're my "stress reliever" at most when we do the kick boxing although I'm not sure if you're just granting me won that let's-go-physical thing. Xez one time I came to God and asked y-oh!-y? He gave you to me. But I thank Him still for bringing my Karma in a friendly manner hahah! Thanks for being a critic, I guess I don't just need compliments but also criticisms to balance my karma to life.

Arnel--Thanks for the time you're giving me. You maybe very focus in your studies but you never fail to remember me. I don't know why you 1^st enter my mind when I don't feel like in good mood,, then I'll just send you a simple message of how exactly I could relate my emotions. Weird that in an instant, it feels like you actually feels how I'm feeling that moment. It's good to know you're just around to compliment, to comment, to encourage and to cheer me up. I like the way we are cherishing our friendship. We're soul mate I guess that's it. Sue---thanks for trusting me. To the entire girly lectures I gained for free, thanks. Someday, hmm I hope someday (please!!!) ma-apply ko din yang mga ganyan and be able to master it. Ahahah!

#9 - MyFriend Bourne. Thanks to all my success kalokohan, it wouldn't be possible if not with you. Thanks for just letting me be a brat. You are spoiling me in a lot of things. I can do whatever I wanna do basta anjan ka. You made me feel proud of my self so thanks so much. You supported me when I'm in-love, when I go-gaga, when I'm heart broken and I guess you'd always been beside me in the dates-to-remember of my life. Noon heheh!. I need to thank you a million times for being a company 24/7 of shopping - "window-shopping" - salon visits - & just walk for hours to help me treat my stress. Never kang napagod hmmm(?) nagpakita pla ng pagod or even complains. You are God's prize to me for being a good girl. Heheh.

#10 - Ladies & Lords. Thanks for letting me push my self to stay over in your condos on my senior years in college and until now ;-) Thanks a lot for all the freebies and night outs. Thanks for the company, d friendship, d advises, brain storming, for being my mentors in a lot of matters. I learned that leadership equates to a bigger obligation. Thank you for being a kuya and ate to me. I learned to cook different types of adobo maanghang, maalat, matamis, ginataan, pinamintahan, tuyo at sinabwan and if it still doesn't taste well you take-out orders from karinderia ;-) Thanks for celebrating the single hearts day during Valentines. Thanks for appreciating me more that I appreciate my self.

Kuya Jan, kuya Ritz, Kcaly, Pretty Daye, Blez, Kuya Tops, Ate Jorie(helow mishu pow!), Soffy, Donna, Cha and Argie.Etc.

Thank u thank u thank u. Mmwah!

#11 - GMDT thanks a lot. You're the only guy who makes me express the way I truly feel. I had loved you and I was brave enough to admit that I do. I was wounded and was meek to say, "yes I was". You may not know this but I earned a lot of things to learn from it. You taught me how to fight for love, when to continue and when to let go slowly but surely I did. I learned that in love there are giving, sacrificing, understanding and a sad ending story sometimes. I came to understand that when there are good things that never last, some like ours couldn't possibly start.

#12 - Superman you let me understand why things can't be perfect at all. And how weakness became your strength. You need to balance everything. Learn to give and take and just be your self.

#13 - Jhaecii for being my chums. Thanks for continuously adoring me as your friend. Although I always argue with you in most of our scheduled plans (yesterday 2/5 was a very tiring day 4me, i guess syo din so i decided to refrain from pangaaway syo, and besides i just came from attending d sunday  mass so i feel holy hahah). Sorry is not ok for us to make up to things dapat my kasamang "bawi", and still here we are "we're friends". God forgot to give me a younger brother that's why maybe he brought you to my life "pahabol daw". Thanks for being my partner in going to malls, groceries, watching movies, hangout for over-nights and just being beside me as my confidant. For joining me deal with serious matters, talked about it until we closed our eyes (-_-) tom ulit Zzz…. And in all honesty we talked over what reality shows or even hide from us.. You don't just simply brings out the best from me, but you're open to tell me those crabby truths so I can help my self turn the best from it. You never fail to say thank you, salamat blah~blah, en now I O U a million thanks.

#14 - I love calling you this way because I never want to miss any of the blessings from your name Blessiline. I think I should thank God more that I have to thank you for never forgetting to give you to me as my bestfriend. With you I don't need to pretend that I'm brave because I'm really stronger by your side. Or I can choose to be a helpless kiddo, coz I know you're there to fix my troubles ;-) Thank you for giving an ear when I needed someone to listen over my petty and solemn dilemmas. For also sharing with me your doubts. Knowing it feels good to be part of someone's life. I'm not sure if I gave you the right advises you need, but certainly it was the best from me. You're one of the souls that dwell in my life. Thank you bes.

#15 - Ahunin & Alvero nuptial. Ahaha! Here's the making of my 2^nd family. Thanks for making me feel that I'm part of the family somehow. tita Lyn-tito Ric thanks 4 d tilapia and all the dishes you prepared during my visit. Sa lugaw etc. after ng inuman session namin kahit anung oras pa kami magtaob. For taking care of me when I was not well. Tatay, thanks for the lagundi, your concern means so much. Tita Yne, to the privilege ID passes that you lend to Bless during our college days whenever we wanted to fish for free movies. Although I'm not sure if the usher would also think that my bestfriend looks like the one in the ID photo as what we wanted to think by ourselves, still we're able to sneak inside the movie house. To Alveros' I really indulged my self enjoying the 2004 reunion, it was my 1^st time to experienced that.

#16 - J.F.Kenedy, The RedCarpet-Manila & Calcarries Intl.. You showed me there is money in beauty. You taught me the confidence a woman of any physical aspect must have. I standout from the rest because you gave pride to my character. Thanks for changing my views that the clothes I put on add beauty in me; instead I help the clothes reveal their unique beauty. For all the freebies I got from the shoot and the foods and friends as well, it's all to be cherish.

#17 - To the Photographers and friends who took all the pictures I have for keeps. -To the Cameras, you produced fantastic shots. I thank you for all those beautiful photos I admires a lot. You really showed how beautiful my life was, how interesting my life had been. I appreciate those special moments more when I glimpse on those photos.. When I'm gone those are the only things that will remind of everybody that I had enjoyed my life with them. The memories will stay in mind, but the photos pictures reality, which brings back the smiles as if it was just lively as yesterday.

#18 - I'm thankful I am a Piscean. I believe this star gives me the ability to be artistic in my own way. My good character and humility was part of the things I lookup to my stars.

#19 - To Bunnz for being such a wonderful name.. I feel the power of being human. I'm a fighter and I try to compete with my self so I can prove how I get even better succeedingly. I am unique in my own way and I was able to show it without hesitation.

#20 - Anisa they say means "the woman". And in my growing-up years I wanted to be just an ordinary "one of those". I never wanted to be girly, to be famed, or to be "known as". I hate my name because it speaks loudly as "woman" in my ears. But now I thank God in a lot of times when some one calls me Anisa or Annie it just reminds me to be humble, to be proper. That it's ok to be weak, to be silent, to cry and just be alone. And in the end, learning to find more of my self.

#21 - Alia & Azis without you I have no family to call my own. You fill-up my childhood memories and you let me be part of your lives too. I love you 4 a million reasons.

#22 - Thank you Mhamu, for forgiving me every time I made mistakes and for being there in my silent agony. Although I never brought out the topic, you just know you are needed. For being over joy or kill joy sometimes. I'm grateful to have you. I feel big time because you are my Super hero. I love you.

#23 - To all the Experiences I gathered - I dreamt, I tried, I stumble, I lied, I cheated, I run away, I turned back, I worked hard, moved forward, I gave, I plead, keep moving, keep fighting, and I surrendered and even say sorry. I was selfless and sometimes selfish.

Succeeded and sometimes failed.

I had been human with all these sorrow and bliss.

I learned what life was the hard way.

And it taught me one priceless thing.

To Survive!

#24 - Lord I thank you for giving me reasons and capacity to fulfill my 24 years of wonderful life.

To you God be thy glory!

#25 - To Everyone and each of you that has been part of my life. And to those that I forgot to name. ( kinulang lang po ;-) count down to 25 pa lang kc ). To all you guys…

"I AM EVERYTHING I AM BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME…"

A Million thanks to all of you and I love you too.

Signed:

ABCM

02/06/2008

"Gratitude is a never ending memories of ones heart." JB Masieu*

XMEN AVENUE

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LOVE is in the air daw when February turns in our calendar. Well yes accepted!… I'm not loveless it's just that I always forgot picking a partner for this kind of event (Valentines Day).

And talking about partner…

Below are the certified "Xmen" of my past. Pagsinama ko pa yung mga "pirated xmen" baka nakakainip ng basahin itong blog ko. Though in fairness they are much more interesting to share with. (But since it's "pirated" I'll leave the stories to those who knows them ) Ahahah!

Just giving you a glimpse on "how" and "why" you can and you need to end a string commitment to your so-called partner. Or you may take this as a tip.



Keanu Reaves - Forgive me if I cannot give you complete period for info coz I have poor memory when it comes to dates. It was 1999 and again I'm not sure of the date but I know this happened before the Valentines that year. It was lunchtime after our class rehearsed for the senior high-school prom cotillion. And the plan of breaking-up with Xmen went well as planned by my friends. Unfortunately kc Xmen did not charmed my barkada proving that he can be a good partner to me (kinulang sa showmanship). Since Xmen was not a classmate one of my friends need to call his attention and invited him inside our classroom (Queen of Peace room). I was seated near the window and he was held to seat in front of me. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing. I'm a teenager and I believe that time that peers offers the best things. Perhaps, because I'm young and a first timer to that kind of set-up so I charged my decisions to my friends. To cut that long moment, short. I broke-up with him(as advised) in front of the entire senior students. Beside me were my male friends remarking that big "Yes! Astig". Until now I still feel sorry for giving Xmen that kind of embarrassment. True to my friends that he wasn't really able to show his feelings to me. But in the end I just did the same thing. I neglect to protect his individuality.

Eventually we became friends. It feels nice that Xmen is so forging.

Vaness Wu - I guess Chito Miranda of Parokya ni Edgar band got the idea of "bigla na lang mawawala" line on one of his songs from my strategy. Heheh(lol). Date was late of 2000. He's a basketball varsity player from the university where I went. Lots of girls look up to him and sometimes became his stoker. Though I have the right to be with him, we found our selves sneaking out on our free time for us to have that quality time together. We don't really have problems to treat in our relationship. We're able to take things light in spite of differences. But out of the blue, I felt like getting tired of the sundo-pasyal cycle of our day-to-day activity. At 12:00nn or 3:00pm he's scheduled to pick me up whether in the catwalk or at the 2/f hallway of my college building.
Now, my disappearing magic started to work. That was quarter to three, I am supposed to be out in a minute after my Rizal class. Seated at the central portion of the room, after seeing him passed-by with some of his team mates(which he usually does every time he picks me, implying by his gestures that "Hi em juz ryt hir w8ng 4u"). I'm not sure how I made my way out of the room to the other door(going to the solarium), while my professor was still lecturing the class. On his second turn, he stood in front of our room. Needless to instruct my classmates, one of them made a hand signal to him to get the word "I'm not around in the class". The next day before lunchtime, again thanks to my beloved IR-classmates. While my head was nodded on the armchair, they told Xmen that I'm taking the lunch hour for a nap because I still don't get a good rest from the passed days. Several days pass by, my alibis and excuses were still working to him. Until one day I guess sumuko din.

I am to blame for not having the courage to just tell him personally how I really feel that time. But guys if this happened to you hahah yun ang ibig sabihin nun. "Nakakasawa na".

The Rock - I broke-up with him several times. I'm not daring him to brake-up with me. I need to. And this time is the final strives. That was 2002, I gave him a diskette that's it. It tells him the days that I kindah like him, and the days that I don't. The day's that I feel soaked of helping him made the relationship works for us. And the days that it hurts too much to still go on with our commitment. And so much of the affliction, I really found that day to be the right time to made my partnership with him ended. As in everything with us ended(him as my beau and me to sacrifice my chairmanship in COSOA and appoint an OIC for me not to make any bond with the university president anymore). How I gave the diskette to Xmen, hmmm can't remember anymore maybe he still recall… What I can't forget is how he was able to get what's inside that thing. That day he tried to look for my whereabouts (now I guess I'm really good in hiding). He even tried calling on two of my personal mobile (I entrust it to a friend, maybe bcoz I knew he would call). I admit I'm also not sure where to place my self that evening. I'm with my bestfriend and late that night we decided staying overnight at her place. As we arrived home, her mom welcomed us in a saddened manner confused on how to settle conversing with the two of us. At last when we are all seated at the salas tita Lyn mutter "Anu bang napagawayan nyo, kawawa nman c Xmen he was crying the whole time we talked. Binuksan nmin dito yung binigay mong diskette (The Rock kahiya huh!) eh talagang maiiyak yung tao blah-blah-blah". Nyek! Dun pa nagbasa, muntik na sana kaming mag-abot. He really knows where to find me I presume. The thing is it's really time for us to move on.

Mayk Velarde - I choose to type it that way, people might found this site very intriguing (mahahala tayo nyan!). If you're looking for a conventional story type of Bf-Gf Lq I suppose our set-up was likely the one you can buy. Xmen is a religious catholic believer (he doesn't even want me attending mass and received the sacrament without me being baptized first…ok ok ok) and community committed servant also. Actually we don't just argue with simple matters like which dress to wear, what cologne to put on or his against my belief. We argue, we fight (I fight), we quarrel over one person all those times (the person as "My life").
I choose to refrain from telling you here what happened between "My life" and me. Because if you give me that chance to share it, you'll be reading this blog overnight and I can't help it. I want to cherish everything that’s why you can't ask me to digest my story.
So that's it "My life" was always the main course of our argument. Somehow it's overfeeding(nakakaumay na). Until we give-up(pretty then that it appear to both of us the best thing likely to do is to give-up). We don't say it's over, we just hanged the strings and left it as is. He made him self more involved to church. And I decided going to far place(Olongapo) with my brother.
I must admit I really can't make the relationship work for good. Because I'm in love, still in love with "My life". And for all you know I go a distant to forget about "My life", but also came back for this same person in my life.

Oh I forgot to add, Mayk Velarde and I have that grace period towards our strings - three months and it's over. If you think it sucks, no - it helps.

And guys wrong sent messages also did help, just have a brilliant mind with you…

Johny Abarientos - (bes permit me to tag this name) Year 2004, after I was hired in a financial institution. My schedule gets really stressing (Sabi nga ng iba you can't work on putting career and carÉÉr together).I focused on working and enjoyed the company of my new friends including "pirated Xmen" which I'll named as Mr.Y. Mr.Y always offers a ride home after office and since our way home is just the same, I have no reason to excuse my self for not riding with him. So I just luxuriate my self for that free ride. Xmen sometimes tried calling on my mobile, but I refuse to answer it because of Mr.Y's presence. I don't prefer giving him the idea that I am taken (just for you to know what's on my mind that time: I don't want to lessen my value. Naughty me that's the only motive). So it continued to be like that, until I lost communication with Xmen. Hindi pa "d'End". Mr.Y and me continued going out. On the other hand, guilty on what I did to Xmen I decided to make-it up with him. But that time he was the one making snubbed with my calls. Maybe it's the simplest way to make it quits for him.
I still enjoyed Mr.Y's company, we became really good friends. Eventually I got a call from Xmen2000. He apologized for not making any brave moved to make our past relationship works. Past is past and we both make-up on the lost chances that we neglected before. I found my self hooked between this two main attraction to my self at that point of time. So I forgot about settling what I never settled with Xmen2004. Now I guess that's it we're no longer together.

One thing that disturbed my idea of being secured with Xmen was that he never feels the same. He was insecure and has a lot of doubts to him self. He always sent me mount of messages to my inbox just to ask if I'm ok as if he was nursing me. Imagine catching your phone with 26missed call. It's not sweet at all; it's more of getting possessive and suspicious.

By the way Mr.Y and Xmen2000 chanced to know each other in one of our night gimmicks. Nice thing was I was able to tell them who they are as part of my life. No commitment attached with those two(fyi).

Gosh it's been years and everything now in that avenue made a lot of changes… I am single, free, and even not dating. I guess I just arrived to the dead end. Huhhh would anyone help me turn my ride back?.

Tinikyzda ><(;>
02142008__________------------------___________---------------------____________-------------

*Nyza will be posting a blog about "Second Chance", after her hit column "Break-up History" where I was able to take her concept and made this column to post. Well I'm gladly looking forward to read it, but fyi I don't buy the idea of second chances. Now, what I can share next will be all about the girls involved with this "Avenue" above. Let's see if I'll be able to write things about them, or will I named them directly. Hahah we'll see.
*Find out next: "Saw-saw suka…"

LOOKING 4WARD 2d NEXT EVENING

“Some of the best feeling in the world is realizing
you are perfectly happy with just a stranger who has
the power to make you feel better without fairly his presence.”





“Hi. How was ur day? Ü”.. This is the usual message I was receiving for the past several days. It was a text message I keep waiting every night coming from a special person, which I consider to be a distant friend of mine. Well “friend” I guess since we had been exchanging text messages during our free time. And that was after the hard day work,,, at night.
Our conversation will just start from a single “hi”, and then “kamusta?”, until we end up with some cracked jokes and getting to know each other a little too well. Being awake in the wee hours of the dark just finding my self excited and smiling after my phone beeps was some of the happiest feeling before I end my day.
Guess what?, I only met this lad from an org. activity and from there me and two of my friends decided to have a one day vacation after the activity. So was then that I chanced to met him on our next stop. That whole day was a great fun. We passed through to different historic part of the place, took a lot of shots and chilled as the temperature dips to 11.2°C. Thanks to him and his colleague because they’re the one who drove and tour us from different places to another. After the whole day of discovering the place I thought it was a bye-bye na with our new found friends. Them.
Until the eve of last Christmas. We then at last started to exchange greeting messages for the holiday season. I am not a text maniac, I either hate receiving mount of messages in my inbox mostly if the message only contains bulk of makulit message. But, in contrary. Knowing he’s just after the end of my phone line makes me feel relax and well off. And to my surprise I found my self looking 4ward to the next evening after the “gudnite (-_-)” message successfully sent.
So tonight hmm,, I need to have my terminal in full charge. Haay! Kilig noh.





01092007
tinikyzda ><(;>

The Most precious.. ..

abandoned angels

They are either abandoned because of their disabilities or become disabled as a result of institutionalization. I wanted to write a serious post about this, but I simply cannot, so I put together the pictures which I hope could not just touch your heart but addressed your very soul to held them in your arms as well as I did... THEY NEED US!





I believe that people are in this world to take care of them.

I don't think there is somebody else to do this for us but US our selves, and I don't think we can find a better "meaning of life" than "sharing" our life to whom it is most needed. To my Filipino and Lingos readers: I decided to make this blog entirely in English to avoid doubling my intentions. This is because I think in this way I could relay this message to million of net bloggers and bet visitors.





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What Matters Most

Success is achieved one at a time, it happened each and every hardship everyday…
I had always tried to ask why some would easily have they’re dreams at their hand, while I had tried to get all the sleep in my life but woke-up with still the same old day.

How would anyone understand my actions when never did I give myself a chance to be all out. I am stranded in one island where everybody keeps growing and sailing far away from me. What could be the best word to express all the agony inside of me? I was hurt and hurting until now. I was lost and never find my own. I am sick and not healing at all. You’re mixed with lots of questions to me, or you answered it on your own. That’s apt to you. But the person in me was dying, loosing faith each and every time I consider my chance to be free. Free to live, to laugh, to cry, to dream, to stand, to win, to run and never stop at all. R e w i n d,,, That always happened. I’ve been here yesterday; I’ve done this many times and was doing all over again because of lack of choice to do my own thing.
We’re getting far but do you understand this piece? How far do you know me after this long twenty-four years? I will understand if you’ll say never at all. In ten years ago I started to loose my self, my own dreams, my own reflections and my own strength.
I tried to keep my self dreaming hoping one day there is one different morning to meet. But that hope even taught me to doubt.
I am a woman, I am loved, I am reach, I am hopeful, I am glowing, I am free. That all you think about me are all deceptions… I never felt to be a woman, hunger for true love, thirsty and dying, hopeless, and a prison inside my own. I can’t run because there is always who follows behind. I hate to stay but one thing keeps on pulling back. I tried to win but it causes me failures.
How much tears do I need to pour out. How much pain will I cause those person who trust me. Disappointment I gave you mom, I’m sorry. Hesitation you feel against me.

I wanted to brace myself and be fearless. Shortly things will happen as how it should be. I’ve been asking a lot of answers from heaven,,, I get insecure, I get hurt, was envious but who else has the right to get angry with the one above. No one.
My apology, coz you never understand these, what matter is after all soon will come that you will certainly do. That’s when this letter will be a kind from long ago.

Tinikyzda
5/23/07

Fact is: I was born and made it to survive; I never win any but I am stronger because I’m doing the battle; I am just alongside, thou I am neglected; I always fear because of choosing not to hurt you; I prefer to be this silent because I am protecting you. I am not perfect, but I know I’ve been human. Soon life will be taken but our smile together I will have till I’m weaken.

xxxNULLAxxx

In our society today a rapidly growing portion exists. Usually teased and/or taken for granted. Often misunderstood and neglected. We call them Singles, for every married couple today there is a single.

Nulla – I pertain to my self. In some point or another I am,,, no-for-no one!
Exactly in my generation when a lot are happier with the other half of their lives and eventually walking down the aisle to exchange marital vows. Many people assume that marriage is best for everyone. But that isn’t necessarily so, as the apostle Paul authenticates singleness as a biblically acceptable lifestyle
“Now to the unmarried and widow I say; it is good for them to stay unmarried as I am.” (1 Corinthian 7:8).



As I always healthily aid my self “see the lighter side of life”… Some distinctiveness of single life make it unique. And as I state personally, here are the advantages of single ones that should be better considered.
1st Adoptable to Less Complex Lifestyle: Single can opt for a personal choice of flat, decorate it as they will. Plan meals they desire or not cook at all ;-) hahaha!!!. Friends and possessions are selected without concern for a spouse’ approval. They can work, play
or lay for hours without bothering anyone. Extended family relationships are less complicated, since fewer people are involved. And one major thing is less to your shoulder… You’re FREE from parenting hassle.
2nd Able to Live and Work Accdg.to Choice: Beep! ----no need to ask a spouse or consider kids in choosing your work load base on financial matter vs. pleasure of doing it. Responsibilities and need of a family doesn’t precisely stand on your way. You are more mobile in lots of opportunities.
3rd Free to Serve God: When most would choose to attached
with friends to escape boredom. Some heartily choose to find ways on reaching and taking their pledge to serve the Lord and the deprived. Singles can give their whole being on rendering actions for public and religious advancement.

Fellow and all you yupees who might somehow deal with this , you need to understand that God calls some of us to a single life. They need to learn that singles would find it easier to remain content and satisfied.

“You’re such a wonderful person, Has anyone asked you to marry?”.. Ever want to meet that question?.. I can’t understand it my self – I’m sorry –
Does it
imply that only the married life can be happy and fulfilling? That singles are less complete because they haven’t said ‘I DO”?. That God’s will is to have all of us married?.

Whatever you had in mind… STAND UP SWIFT!!! Don’t wait too long and hit the last trip!.


Thanks for hanging around! Ciao!
xxxNullaxxx

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my most wanted song from a walk to remember
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I have always raced through life

Hoping to catch d answers on d way

But only I crossed countless questions

A question to question... suffocates

I tried to steal life forwarding

But slowly it pulls me backward

I flee d scratches in my hand

So clearly I can read my palm

Thirteen, Eighteen come Twenty-two

Older years denied long confusion

But when I thought I never understand life

It drives on to understand my ways

tinikyzda 9/30

T W Ö

I’ve been asked twice in one day which just happen a couple of days ago by those parents of two closest friend of mine in two different phase of time. A question, which I in fact never mind but closely I just realized how it really was. WOW! A question I have not in head at all.

They likewise asked me why I haven’t got my self a boyfriend yet. While on the other hand theirs are almost planning to get wed. Anyway the talked went so nicely and my dialogue falls like this…

“I don’t think I need to have one tita, I’m one of the boys and at the same time having fun with male friends were a lot of enjoyment rather than having just one that knots your neck. It gets me sick after my phone rings all day just to picked a message [just checking if you’re all right blah blah], when I’m pretty confident that I will surely be all right even without someone to monitor my actions. Okay! I know I’m helpless sometimes,, all right a lot I admit. Well that doesn’t change a thing. I’m a sweet lady not their ‘tamagochi’. Freak!! So I better decided to bug off from them.

I’m a hopeless romantic, I guess not that transparent but I am (is it abnormal?). I enjoy having all the time of my life with friends and family, and I know it feels so good to have somebody to share your happiness with and is willing to do the same for me. UNFORTUNETELY. All those nice things cannot be seen in just one guy.” (Then laugh..).

Until the night gets deeper and those conversation flashed my head once more, in an unlikely manner of asking my self “bakit nga ba?” although I know why (nakakainis noh?!). I’m 23, yet not getting any steady relationship. Though I got no prob with my previous boyfriend still we need to part ways for a serious good reason that in fact doesn’t affect my amity with him. We still communicate with each other meet every fine Friday with friends, and that’s all. I have no qualms with our past and with our decisions though I know I had let go of someone who actually has the power to make me happy, laugh, giggle and made me feel special in his own way.

Another guy in my mind was my second boyfriend. He’s reserve, proper and …boring. Obviously I really have no idea why he likes my kind. Ours did not end up that well, but as years goes by our indifference ended up being friends. He still feels the same old feeling he has for me way-back college. All right …it’s mutual. Sad, but I don’t afford keeping a long distance affair. He’s now settled in Venice holding a noble career. We talked over the phone once in a while and it makes us closer even more.
In picking up a beau you don’t only consider what’s inside your heart, more of it the head is still above your chest. So was that….

Actually I really am not dating any guy right now. For the first time in my life I’M NOT.

I heard the words ‘I love you’ several times. But the feelings are not much supportive of it. I could have at least given my self a chance of being loved fairly, worth-it and forever.

Why does some girls simply find their mr.right, and mine seems loosing his way locating my nest?
Is it really the one for them, or did I already miss the luck of opening my door for mr.right?

Whatever!!! I just hope I wouldn’t end up counting more years being asked by the same question above.

11/08'06
tinikyzda

19LINES ...SO MEAN

He loves me through the sun and the stars

He gave me light & push on the blocks

He fights for me & even prays for

He almost won me over except my heart

Why can I be so mean w/ him

When all those times He loves me so pure

Unconditionally he gave his best

He almost show me his whole world

But selfishly I closes mine

I even gave him my coldest shoulder

Never call when his missing my side

For all those times that I pain his heart

Why can't he hate me, not even a little

Waiting for the time that he'll turn back

I even find ways to say goodbye

Still his acting like everything is well

Why can't he hate me, not even close

When all these time I've been so mean

Why can't he hate me, not even at all?

UP CLOSE... ANISA MACALAWI

Salam. I am about to write something about her, help me if you can contribute to this. Her name is Anisa, she's a proud filipina and proud to have her skin tanned as her kabayan's. Her family calls her Annie, [that's sort of cutie kiddie palayaw], majority of her friends and colleagues often calls her a different name [and she loved to be called that way], and some would call her Niza [as shortcut to her real name]. She was born in the year of the Boar [1983] under the astronomical sign of Pisces. A moslem in blood, and was raised on her early years abiding to their culture though as she grew up and had her own personal views and opinion she began to practice and adhere the Christian values. She was raised by her parents [special recognition to her supper sweet mom] half her life here in Manila and in the province of Bulacan with strict copliance with their rules and laws as a parental guide, together with two of her sibblings.
Annie is the type of person that easily get connected with things and she keep going for more than she can without getting it on account of others. She looks after of doing a lot of things to fill her time, loving Arts as her passion and keeping her fingers cross for world peace... "Simple things, simple happiness, invites absolute good karma." —as she always said.



Her parents are into legal practice. Her father [Ali] former ARMM DOLE Secretary and presiding Judge of Iligan RTC now Fiscal and president of the IBP Iligan (by the time of this writing). Her mom [Rocky]  A Supreme Court reporter officer IV now with over 25year of service to the government. But don't expect her to be inclined with their field, although, she finished college with a degree in Political Science, she majored the International Relations studies [alike with her papas' prelaw since she said it's more easier than taking up Rocky's degree in Economics]. The roots maybe different to its seed, she's into her passion, She jammed on different lenses and catwalk ramps most of her days, walk on the fame of different insigns creation.. not getting tired of it [she claim not be tired on that until she reached 27.. she could claim that as her contract from the modeling maagement will expire by that time *chuckles*] She was paid enough for staying young. She can course to be your pictorial babe on your lenses, and the one who wares and campaign for pretty teens, baleno, g-girls... aficionado, sugar suzuki, and Dennis Cabalinan's Kasal.com bridal coutures. Every milestone that she claim from this, she puts credits to her manager JF of TheRedCarpet Management.

Blood is thicker... [it start and ends there] She's enggage on different advocate organizations.. She campaign (as a founding member) for anti-corruption under Walang ku-corrupt movement [http://www.walangkucorrupt.ph]  inaugurated at Lemery, Batangas. An active supporter of a Human Rights group with Amnesty International - Pilipinas [web.amnesty.org],.. and a 10 year old member of the  Liberal Party  [www.liberalparty.ph/]...  One of the founder of central student movement by National Youth Commission [NYC] the Student Council Action Network [SCAN] that was inaugurated at the CIty of Baguio on 2002. 

She's not into noise and street revolution. She do adhere with the prosperity of diplomatic peace talk.[ the ultimate end of all revolutionary social change is to establish the sanctity of human life, the dignity of man, the rights of every human being to liberty and well being...] Bringing more justice to the world pleases her heart, and if she can continuously work in charity field to relieve suffering she would meet great happiness. Giving attention to the underprivileged makes her happy. She wanted to be with friends who shares her interest in expansive causes and are cheerfully active to bring about better condition to others. Practicing her artistic skills in art, construction, and poetry online brings another fulfilled happiness. And now as she joins the international organization of project management institute of professionals she meets the direction where this career will lead her. 

At the age of 28 and still single she honestly prefer not to go dating a guy, though her parents engage her to her cousin to be his wife in muslim rights [sharmuta or the parental marriage] a totally strange man to her, so she can't look after of giving their selves the time to vow with each other [N-E-V-E-R] thus, she practice her rights to say NO. She's not eyeing for someone right now just because of the situation. Instead, she look forward for the right time and the right person who can take and accept all there is in her. A self confessed believer of the power of *click* as they call it.

With all these 28 years of journey for progress and survival I may say that she has grown up to be a better person. Her life molds her character and she's proud with the waythings are going for her.

Things that gets her interest are water sports [and yes she loves surfing], articles and poem writttings, landscape photo shooting, eating, web blogging, and light shopping [should I say she's a wise shopper] she recently falls in love with books and just finished reading two books of Liv Ulmann. The first is Changes and the other one is Choices. She also reads Senators pocketbook, and Christian Books from Logos Hope.

Friendship for her is a sweet responsibility and never she took it as an opportunity or of self interest. She love it when she's giving herself a chence to be someone elses friend. She value it a lot like how she value her family. A person with sharp tongue to tell you words you don't want to hear, but she honestly do so if she wants you to change for a good knock. She's kind and loyal in her own ways.

She is ANISA, you may hear her laugh out loud be careful though, not to hurt her heart because she cried out lout as well. I should know!

DE NOS JOURS LE PIERRE

Summer guzzling, freezing heat
Quiet blank with touches around
On a freshly plummet silent dry leaves
I am an island, I am a stone
I built walls, mighty that no one ceases
I have no need of acquaintance
They caused me only pain
It’s loving and it’s laughter I disdain
I am an island, I am one
Love has slept in memories
No need to disturbed the feelings
Like summer, it arid long ago
If I never loved, I never likely cry.
And by no means known loneliness
I have my pen and my poetry to protect me

I am shielded w/ my armor
I touch no one and no one touches me
I am one
Twenty-two years In time
An island that never cries
A stone that bears no pain

3/6’06
tinikyzda
cumpleaños kopo…
in time of stone

Audaces fortuna iuvat

Aspirat primo Fortuna labori - Fortune smiles upon our first effort. (Virgil)