LOVE is in the air daw when February turns in our calendar. Well yes accepted!… I'm not loveless it's just that I always forgot picking a partner for this kind of event (Valentines Day).
And talking about partner…
Below are the certified "Xmen" of my past. Pagsinama ko pa yung mga "pirated xmen" baka nakakainip ng basahin itong blog ko. Though in fairness they are much more interesting to share with. (But since it's "pirated" I'll leave the stories to those who knows them ) Ahahah!
Just giving you a glimpse on "how" and "why" you can and you need to end a string commitment to your so-called partner. Or you may take this as a tip.
Keanu Reaves - Forgive me if I cannot give you complete period for info coz I have poor memory when it comes to dates. It was 1999 and again I'm not sure of the date but I know this happened before the Valentines that year. It was lunchtime after our class rehearsed for the senior high-school prom cotillion. And the plan of breaking-up with Xmen went well as planned by my friends. Unfortunately kc Xmen did not charmed my barkada proving that he can be a good partner to me (kinulang sa showmanship). Since Xmen was not a classmate one of my friends need to call his attention and invited him inside our classroom (Queen of Peace room). I was seated near the window and he was held to seat in front of me. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing. I'm a teenager and I believe that time that peers offers the best things. Perhaps, because I'm young and a first timer to that kind of set-up so I charged my decisions to my friends. To cut that long moment, short. I broke-up with him(as advised) in front of the entire senior students. Beside me were my male friends remarking that big "Yes! Astig". Until now I still feel sorry for giving Xmen that kind of embarrassment. True to my friends that he wasn't really able to show his feelings to me. But in the end I just did the same thing. I neglect to protect his individuality.
Eventually we became friends. It feels nice that Xmen is so forging.
Vaness Wu - I guess Chito Miranda of Parokya ni Edgar band got the idea of "bigla na lang mawawala" line on one of his songs from my strategy. Heheh(lol). Date was late of 2000. He's a basketball varsity player from the university where I went. Lots of girls look up to him and sometimes became his stoker. Though I have the right to be with him, we found our selves sneaking out on our free time for us to have that quality time together. We don't really have problems to treat in our relationship. We're able to take things light in spite of differences. But out of the blue, I felt like getting tired of the sundo-pasyal cycle of our day-to-day activity. At 12:00nn or 3:00pm he's scheduled to pick me up whether in the catwalk or at the 2/f hallway of my college building.
Now, my disappearing magic started to work. That was quarter to three, I am supposed to be out in a minute after my Rizal class. Seated at the central portion of the room, after seeing him passed-by with some of his team mates(which he usually does every time he picks me, implying by his gestures that "Hi em juz ryt hir w8ng 4u"). I'm not sure how I made my way out of the room to the other door(going to the solarium), while my professor was still lecturing the class. On his second turn, he stood in front of our room. Needless to instruct my classmates, one of them made a hand signal to him to get the word "I'm not around in the class". The next day before lunchtime, again thanks to my beloved IR-classmates. While my head was nodded on the armchair, they told Xmen that I'm taking the lunch hour for a nap because I still don't get a good rest from the passed days. Several days pass by, my alibis and excuses were still working to him. Until one day I guess sumuko din.
I am to blame for not having the courage to just tell him personally how I really feel that time. But guys if this happened to you hahah yun ang ibig sabihin nun. "Nakakasawa na".
The Rock - I broke-up with him several times. I'm not daring him to brake-up with me. I need to. And this time is the final strives. That was 2002, I gave him a diskette that's it. It tells him the days that I kindah like him, and the days that I don't. The day's that I feel soaked of helping him made the relationship works for us. And the days that it hurts too much to still go on with our commitment. And so much of the affliction, I really found that day to be the right time to made my partnership with him ended. As in everything with us ended(him as my beau and me to sacrifice my chairmanship in COSOA and appoint an OIC for me not to make any bond with the university president anymore). How I gave the diskette to Xmen, hmmm can't remember anymore maybe he still recall… What I can't forget is how he was able to get what's inside that thing. That day he tried to look for my whereabouts (now I guess I'm really good in hiding). He even tried calling on two of my personal mobile (I entrust it to a friend, maybe bcoz I knew he would call). I admit I'm also not sure where to place my self that evening. I'm with my bestfriend and late that night we decided staying overnight at her place. As we arrived home, her mom welcomed us in a saddened manner confused on how to settle conversing with the two of us. At last when we are all seated at the salas tita Lyn mutter "Anu bang napagawayan nyo, kawawa nman c Xmen he was crying the whole time we talked. Binuksan nmin dito yung binigay mong diskette (The Rock kahiya huh!) eh talagang maiiyak yung tao blah-blah-blah". Nyek! Dun pa nagbasa, muntik na sana kaming mag-abot. He really knows where to find me I presume. The thing is it's really time for us to move on.
Mayk Velarde - I choose to type it that way, people might found this site very intriguing (mahahala tayo nyan!). If you're looking for a conventional story type of Bf-Gf Lq I suppose our set-up was likely the one you can buy. Xmen is a religious catholic believer (he doesn't even want me attending mass and received the sacrament without me being baptized first…ok ok ok) and community committed servant also. Actually we don't just argue with simple matters like which dress to wear, what cologne to put on or his against my belief. We argue, we fight (I fight), we quarrel over one person all those times (the person as "My life").
I choose to refrain from telling you here what happened between "My life" and me. Because if you give me that chance to share it, you'll be reading this blog overnight and I can't help it. I want to cherish everything that’s why you can't ask me to digest my story.
So that's it "My life" was always the main course of our argument. Somehow it's overfeeding(nakakaumay na). Until we give-up(pretty then that it appear to both of us the best thing likely to do is to give-up). We don't say it's over, we just hanged the strings and left it as is. He made him self more involved to church. And I decided going to far place(Olongapo) with my brother.
I must admit I really can't make the relationship work for good. Because I'm in love, still in love with "My life". And for all you know I go a distant to forget about "My life", but also came back for this same person in my life.
Oh I forgot to add, Mayk Velarde and I have that grace period towards our strings - three months and it's over. If you think it sucks, no - it helps.
And guys wrong sent messages also did help, just have a brilliant mind with you…
Johny Abarientos - (bes permit me to tag this name) Year 2004, after I was hired in a financial institution. My schedule gets really stressing (Sabi nga ng iba you can't work on putting career and carÉÉr together).I focused on working and enjoyed the company of my new friends including "pirated Xmen" which I'll named as Mr.Y. Mr.Y always offers a ride home after office and since our way home is just the same, I have no reason to excuse my self for not riding with him. So I just luxuriate my self for that free ride. Xmen sometimes tried calling on my mobile, but I refuse to answer it because of Mr.Y's presence. I don't prefer giving him the idea that I am taken (just for you to know what's on my mind that time: I don't want to lessen my value. Naughty me that's the only motive). So it continued to be like that, until I lost communication with Xmen. Hindi pa "d'End". Mr.Y and me continued going out. On the other hand, guilty on what I did to Xmen I decided to make-it up with him. But that time he was the one making snubbed with my calls. Maybe it's the simplest way to make it quits for him.
I still enjoyed Mr.Y's company, we became really good friends. Eventually I got a call from Xmen2000. He apologized for not making any brave moved to make our past relationship works. Past is past and we both make-up on the lost chances that we neglected before. I found my self hooked between this two main attraction to my self at that point of time. So I forgot about settling what I never settled with Xmen2004. Now I guess that's it we're no longer together.
One thing that disturbed my idea of being secured with Xmen was that he never feels the same. He was insecure and has a lot of doubts to him self. He always sent me mount of messages to my inbox just to ask if I'm ok as if he was nursing me. Imagine catching your phone with 26missed call. It's not sweet at all; it's more of getting possessive and suspicious.
By the way Mr.Y and Xmen2000 chanced to know each other in one of our night gimmicks. Nice thing was I was able to tell them who they are as part of my life. No commitment attached with those two(fyi).
Gosh it's been years and everything now in that avenue made a lot of changes… I am single, free, and even not dating. I guess I just arrived to the dead end. Huhhh would anyone help me turn my ride back?.
Tinikyzda ><(;>
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*Nyza will be posting a blog about "Second Chance", after her hit column "Break-up History" where I was able to take her concept and made this column to post. Well I'm gladly looking forward to read it, but fyi I don't buy the idea of second chances. Now, what I can share next will be all about the girls involved with this "Avenue" above. Let's see if I'll be able to write things about them, or will I named them directly. Hahah we'll see.
*Find out next: "Saw-saw suka…"
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